When I look back at the last 5 yrs of my life i feel as if i have failed....comparing it to what it was before that. Let's not get into why it is so...basically everything adds up academics, confidence, just general smartness and intelligence have all dipped by a non-negligible amount.There have been no accomplishments as such...well nothing that I did not expect very easily anyway. And Im sure that people not knowing me very closely and going just by comparison of my "record on paper" would be wondering...how i blew it. (Well this blog is not for those ppl so that they can stop wondering...because they dont read my blogs anyways!)
But even in the midst of this "failure" there was a silver lining...infact there was more than one silver lining. It is failure that makes you appreciate the value of success...it is failure that makes u realise the importance of hardwork,perseverence and patience. Failure is imperitive for the growth of any individual. So believe me...dont feel too low if you have failed...it can only get better.
The last 5 years may not show a great deal on paper...but it is these 5 years in which i have learnt the most...and it is what i have learnt in these five years that i will be leading my life on. And when i say learnt i dont mean electrical technology or physics or mathematics....i mean just the general virtues of life. It is in these five years that i have made friends whom I know will be friends for life. It is in these five years that i have had experiences that i will remember for life. It is these five years that i have felt more emotions than ever before and probably ever after. So may be it's worth it... though i may have lost some mental intelligence...i think emotionally i am much more intelligent..and I have realised that it will help me immensely through life.
So may be that these years have not been a failure after all...may be what i think my definition of success is in my head needs to be redefined. After all isn't succes just a measure of how 'happy' you really are. If yes...then to be happy you don't need the "success" which most of us dream of thinking it to be real success.
In any case things seem to be falling back into place now... slowly but surely...so whatever defintion of success i wish to apply hopefully will be giving me positive results now!!
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Re-start
Phhheeewww....boy was that a long break o wat!!
Anyways after 6 months...i think i shud introduce myself now...
inspired by shreyas....and following kd's footsteps :)
well...here it goes..
1. The first point is always the toughest.
2. Im a good boy (hehe...courtesy jhunjhun)
3. I like to be in a hurry...i like to be active
4. Music is life
5. The way my day goes has a lot to do with the first song i listen to tht morning :)
6. I think Rahman is God!!
7. So is Billy Joel..november rain is one of my fav songs (ya ya...thts not by billy joel)
8. I think marine drive bombay is the best place to be..
9. For me bombay beats new york...tho i hv nt been there
10. I cant settle in a village...no way...tht is one lesson kharagpur has taught me :)
11. I sincerely hope that i can help my country in some way some day
12. Swades is my favourite movie...
13. I watch it once a month..
14. I think Matrix is the best movie to have been made..no doubt.
15. But I enjoy Legally Blonde and Kabhi haan kabhi naa more..lol
16. Acads has taken a back seat ever since i became an iit'ian (wtv tht)
17. But its gradually getting back in front....
18. No..no i am not interested in engineering...no technical MS for me pls!!
19. Advertising has been a fascination.
20. But i hope i can make a career in financial analysis.
21. Used to be a die hard cricket fan..
22. Now only watch world cup cricket.
23. Pav Bhaji roxxxx!!
24. I think i make the best pav bhaji.
25. Believe me...i dont boast...(pls!!)
26. No smoking pls..
27. I dont drink...but wanna try red wine some day (it's so red...how!!!)
28. I love the choclate avalanche at cafe mocha!
29. Blue is my favourite colour...no reasons reqd..
30. I think Vande Mataram is the best song ever made!!
31. My friends are very important to me.
32. I rate friendship above love...friends are here to stay.
33. Ppl say I am not at all romantic...well saving it for wen i need it ;)
34. I hardly ever get angry.
35. I can get irritated tho..hehe
36. I love my school....St Mary's rocks!!
37. I miss inorganic chemistry :(
38. I think priyanka chopra looked awesome in bluffmaster..
39. I loved Kane and Able and As the crow flies..by Jeffery Archer
40. I think it is the best way to get the basics of finance :)
41. At present Im half an engineer and one-fourth an actuary
42. I am spiritual but not religious.
43. I believe the Mahabharat imparts wisdom.
44. I have seen it twice and read it once...i am wise ;)
45. Im not good at small talk.
46. I hate ppl who are artificial..and i pray i never become one.
47. I find psychology a fascinating subject.
48. I have started believeing in luck and destiny..(I think)
49. I have to visit Australia at least once in my lifetime...
50. chal bye....mom's calling..
Anyways after 6 months...i think i shud introduce myself now...
inspired by shreyas....and following kd's footsteps :)
well...here it goes..
1. The first point is always the toughest.
2. Im a good boy (hehe...courtesy jhunjhun)
3. I like to be in a hurry...i like to be active
4. Music is life
5. The way my day goes has a lot to do with the first song i listen to tht morning :)
6. I think Rahman is God!!
7. So is Billy Joel..november rain is one of my fav songs (ya ya...thts not by billy joel)
8. I think marine drive bombay is the best place to be..
9. For me bombay beats new york...tho i hv nt been there
10. I cant settle in a village...no way...tht is one lesson kharagpur has taught me :)
11. I sincerely hope that i can help my country in some way some day
12. Swades is my favourite movie...
13. I watch it once a month..
14. I think Matrix is the best movie to have been made..no doubt.
15. But I enjoy Legally Blonde and Kabhi haan kabhi naa more..lol
16. Acads has taken a back seat ever since i became an iit'ian (wtv tht)
17. But its gradually getting back in front....
18. No..no i am not interested in engineering...no technical MS for me pls!!
19. Advertising has been a fascination.
20. But i hope i can make a career in financial analysis.
21. Used to be a die hard cricket fan..
22. Now only watch world cup cricket.
23. Pav Bhaji roxxxx!!
24. I think i make the best pav bhaji.
25. Believe me...i dont boast...(pls!!)
26. No smoking pls..
27. I dont drink...but wanna try red wine some day (it's so red...how!!!)
28. I love the choclate avalanche at cafe mocha!
29. Blue is my favourite colour...no reasons reqd..
30. I think Vande Mataram is the best song ever made!!
31. My friends are very important to me.
32. I rate friendship above love...friends are here to stay.
33. Ppl say I am not at all romantic...well saving it for wen i need it ;)
34. I hardly ever get angry.
35. I can get irritated tho..hehe
36. I love my school....St Mary's rocks!!
37. I miss inorganic chemistry :(
38. I think priyanka chopra looked awesome in bluffmaster..
39. I loved Kane and Able and As the crow flies..by Jeffery Archer
40. I think it is the best way to get the basics of finance :)
41. At present Im half an engineer and one-fourth an actuary
42. I am spiritual but not religious.
43. I believe the Mahabharat imparts wisdom.
44. I have seen it twice and read it once...i am wise ;)
45. Im not good at small talk.
46. I hate ppl who are artificial..and i pray i never become one.
47. I find psychology a fascinating subject.
48. I have started believeing in luck and destiny..(I think)
49. I have to visit Australia at least once in my lifetime...
50. chal bye....mom's calling..
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Tun Tun Na Dhi Na Dhi Na!!
Had a real blast today spending some time in the music room alone with the drums....someone who has never played the drums and has no clue about them has to really enjoy holding those sticks and banging the hell out of the drum set....well i did just that!!...and in the process even learnt some rookie stuff and found an analogy between the drums and the tabla...it's hilarious to see someone playing the drums shouting out tabla "bols" !!
Also spent some time with norman lewis' word power made easy....man tht guy is one hell of a genius...amazing writing style and impeccable use of psychology and etymology really does make even somethin as boring and cumbersome such as learning words really fascinating and enjoyable.
Tried to start studying electrical machines in the library today...but like all first visits to the library of every new "mugging" season...this one too was an absolute fiasco.
Went for dinner with friends to this nice restaurant called waldorf with good chinese food. The restaurant was pretty dimly lit, shabby and village-like...but it still had a certain feel to it which made me like it...will definately go there more often henceforth....funny tht the first time i went there was today...after nearly 4 sems of stay here in kgp.
signing of with something to think about...something my mother had read to me a few years ago..and something so real and unforgettable.
As a rule..man is a fool,
He wants it hot...wen it is cool,
He wants it cool...wen it is hot,
Always wanting...wat is not!!!
Also spent some time with norman lewis' word power made easy....man tht guy is one hell of a genius...amazing writing style and impeccable use of psychology and etymology really does make even somethin as boring and cumbersome such as learning words really fascinating and enjoyable.
Tried to start studying electrical machines in the library today...but like all first visits to the library of every new "mugging" season...this one too was an absolute fiasco.
Went for dinner with friends to this nice restaurant called waldorf with good chinese food. The restaurant was pretty dimly lit, shabby and village-like...but it still had a certain feel to it which made me like it...will definately go there more often henceforth....funny tht the first time i went there was today...after nearly 4 sems of stay here in kgp.
signing of with something to think about...something my mother had read to me a few years ago..and something so real and unforgettable.
As a rule..man is a fool,
He wants it hot...wen it is cool,
He wants it cool...wen it is hot,
Always wanting...wat is not!!!
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Winds of Change!!
After four long months of surviving without a ceiling fan....finally the iit authorities decided to repair my fan!!.....wat a relief...makes my shabby little room suddenly feel like heaven!...
It's only the absence of something that can make u realise it's true value.(pankhe ka fundaa).
Taking nothing away from today's fantastic treat....but i just had to mention the fan first!
Had a boisterous party at punjabi dhaba...a typical village restaurant here in kgp.An awesome cycle ride thru the pleasant cool breeze with friends after a long week full of labs and hectic classes...followed by a frenzied celebration of just being together...all of us after so long! It's evenings like this which we'll cherish thru out our lives....and remind us of the one thing that binds us all....first year in iit.
Through the day just did some routine stuff like guess the word,hearing some rahman songs and reassuring that he is simply the best! Played the keyboard today after 5 days....thts a pretty long gap...felt really nice.
have fallen in love with this song called "we've got tonight" by bob segar...moreover it's video in wonder years with kevin arnold and winnie cooper makes the song even more special!!
It's only the absence of something that can make u realise it's true value.(pankhe ka fundaa).
Taking nothing away from today's fantastic treat....but i just had to mention the fan first!
Had a boisterous party at punjabi dhaba...a typical village restaurant here in kgp.An awesome cycle ride thru the pleasant cool breeze with friends after a long week full of labs and hectic classes...followed by a frenzied celebration of just being together...all of us after so long! It's evenings like this which we'll cherish thru out our lives....and remind us of the one thing that binds us all....first year in iit.
Through the day just did some routine stuff like guess the word,hearing some rahman songs and reassuring that he is simply the best! Played the keyboard today after 5 days....thts a pretty long gap...felt really nice.
have fallen in love with this song called "we've got tonight" by bob segar...moreover it's video in wonder years with kevin arnold and winnie cooper makes the song even more special!!
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Leisure
After a prolonged music season this sem....finally there is some free time!!
Looking back at the past 3 months ...I cannot see myself asking for more...or perhaps mid sems cud have been a little better...but then again wat the hec!!
3 golds out of the 4 events i participated in...after a good ETMS production in sf...and passing CT 7 in actuary more than compensates for the mediocre mid-sem...and then again as always there is always end sem to cover up!(thts optimism for you).
Just feel like home for a few days but the profs here are way too stringent to allow tht...but some interesting( good) and some really disturbing (bad) developments back home are calling out to me!!!
Anyways....basically took the day off today and just spent some leisure time with friends after a stupid medical check up in the morning(yeh!! i dont hv cancer!!). A much needed break from the past few days of rigorous practice and labs.
Have to seriously get back to acads now...some tests coming up..and desperately need to do well in those! and not to forget the great actuary pprs comin up this may!...hehe God help me!
Looking back at the past 3 months ...I cannot see myself asking for more...or perhaps mid sems cud have been a little better...but then again wat the hec!!
3 golds out of the 4 events i participated in...after a good ETMS production in sf...and passing CT 7 in actuary more than compensates for the mediocre mid-sem...and then again as always there is always end sem to cover up!(thts optimism for you).
Just feel like home for a few days but the profs here are way too stringent to allow tht...but some interesting( good) and some really disturbing (bad) developments back home are calling out to me!!!
Anyways....basically took the day off today and just spent some leisure time with friends after a stupid medical check up in the morning(yeh!! i dont hv cancer!!). A much needed break from the past few days of rigorous practice and labs.
Have to seriously get back to acads now...some tests coming up..and desperately need to do well in those! and not to forget the great actuary pprs comin up this may!...hehe God help me!
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